It seems to me, that there are many states of being that define living a life.  One of the best is anticipation.  A nearly permanent condition, anticipation drives much of the small tweaks we make to life decisions as we await results – desired or otherwise.  Not surprisingly, these small doses of life-tweaks go unnoticed by the host.  To what, I am not sure.

It does beg the question – is that a good thing?  More direct, does it matter and can it be controlled?