It seems to me, that there are many states of being that define living a life. One of the best is anticipation. A nearly permanent condition, anticipation drives much of the small tweaks we make to life decisions as we await results – desired or otherwise. Not surprisingly, these small doses of life-tweaks go unnoticed by the host. To what, I am not sure.
It does beg the question – is that a good thing? More direct, does it matter and can it be controlled?